BEING A MOTHER :)

wow it came in like to surprise in my life one fine day
I get to know I am pregnant ddn’t knew what I should have done I always wanted this thing to happen in my life but didn’t knew this would come in like a surprise to me I wish if I was with the family and every one around me when this moment of my life had begin… also I really wish when I have a kid I can gave my kid a beautiful luxurious life and give all the best thing in world before my kid could ask for things he would have those thing best of life and best of studies and everything ….. yes I really wish if it is a girl cause I feel she would be my best frnd and would love me the most same way I love my mom… she would be not be only my daughter but my friend with whom I could live my life all over again …. do all the things with her shopping clubbing toand all stuff that one does with a best friend share all things guide her in all things …. go palour together have our facials together and shopping together … but at the same time I really wish she doesn’t have to leave me just like I had to leave my mom and get married and go away …. I still tell my mom next birth may be make me a boy so I don’t have to be away from her …. I don’t know if I get a boy also I would love him and do the same thing but I just wish he would also love me as I love him and we would have a wonderful days ….
I had written once earlier long back also looking at a wedding of a girl in Bombay where in it was a grand wedding and she was looking like one princes looking at her I had wished if I ever get a baby I would also give her the similar kind of marriage with a full grand wedding give her the best of the clothes jewelry and make up and she would look like one angel came down on the earth …. I really wish I could give all this to my kid when she or he comes in this world J
I know my kid can also feel wat I am feeling and I am waiting for the first movement of my baby the first kick and I am waiting to hear her heart beat … my baby would be a healthy strong baby just like her mom and nani J and her masi she would be a beautiful little princess …….

Being away from mom..... its like being half dead ..

when we have every thing around us we still don’t feel that complete and cave for more things and say our life is incomplete and I guess that’s wat is happened with me but I never wished ever in my life being away from my home my family my mom ….
after coming here my life has changed sometimes I feel its good cause lot of good things have happened but then at times I feel wat life is this without family with out mom ….
I was so spoiled and so pampered and when I use to get everything I still use to complain and use to value them but not that much ….. I guess it’s a punishment that god has sent me away from my mom just like a kid when he is sent to hostel …. I feel the same the food that mom use to make and I use to throw tantrums and use to make faces …. now I die to get the same taste by making the same food to I could at least get the taste of the food what my mom use to make …… I use to hate when mom use to make idlis and dosas cause she use to make them so nice that we had to eat them for a week …………. and complain don’t make it but now we die to eat that here ….. I really wish why god made me a girl at times cause at the end whatever we do and how much ever we fight to be with them and try to change the rules of the society by being with mom and family after marriage but still we cant do that for long ….. and here it goes a girl has to leave her parents house and go away from them …… and live with her partner …. I try to do lot of changes to make things happen and to let them go my way and it happened but at the end I guess I was just to spoiled and pampered that god asked me to see this life also of being away from them ….
its is really a miserable feeling to be away from u mom ….. I really miss out on the days when I use to come from work and take my car out and ask mom to get ready and go with her for shopping to the mall and then after shopping having a small dinner date with mom at pizza hut and order so much and make her full use to be fun miss out on all the days she had spoiled me and pampered me

Miss u mom

Letter for Santa !!!

Dear Santa

Wish you a many many …. Opps sorry merry Christmas … I am sorry Santa writing a letter to you after a ages long.. So have forgotten how to write one.. yes I use to believe there is a Santa when I was a kid and still do and use to write letters to you with list of my wish and complaining abt my elders sisters to you in that… so you could punish them …
But one fine day I got to know that my elder’s sisters were only trying to be Santa and put gifts in my socks and take the letter I use to write for you … then when I thought there is no Santa …. But some where down my heart I still thought u were there … and yes u were cause you have supported me in all the possible ways and guided me when ever I needed to make me a strong girl today … thanks Santa but still I would like you to ask something from you … I don’t want to grow up and I really would request you if you could stop the time and turn back the time in past and give my childhood back cause those were the best days of my life and I don’t want to grow up and don’t want to think abt anything be happy and get wat I want and no tension or thinking abt thinking just enjoy those days …. If you cant give me that Santa.. then I would wish you to give me so much strength that I could try to keep everyone happy and always be with them … dnt want to be away from my love once which is my actual happiness
I hope you would fulfill my wish
Thanks Santa
From your kid
Tina :)

Directions !!!

All came in my mind

when i was on my way to office !!!

travelling in a rick....

Uncle was in hurry crossing the road so that he doesnt misses the bus.

The Car was taking the fastest turn so he could get his way in right direction..

The Car was driving in speed so that he doesnt gets the red signal..

Everyone is always running in their own Direction never Stops in life ...

Event after death their souls runs in the direction to reach HEAVEN ...

So their journey could finally end....

And they Finally REST IN PEACE !!!!

Sand !!!

Yes there was a time when I was feeling happy
There was a time when I thought I am getting wat I want.
There was a time when I had thought I am the luckiest girl on this earth
Cause things were just going my way and were getting things that I wanted.
And had just wished if I could stop the time and things will just remain the same.
But as said life is just too sweet and sour at times
Happiness can’t be around us always it’s just like sand
When u grab it and when it’s in ur hand enjoy those moments.
Cause just like sand can’t say in ur hand for long
Same goes for happiness can’t stay with one for a long.

Still Feeling Low!!!

As You Whisper In My Ear
Comforted by your thoughts Those times
I felt lonely Wishing you could be here
As you whispered if only
I savoured your sweet words
Listening to what you say
As you expressed your love
So near yet so far away
Ever